Sleepless nights, endless thoughts.

So, I can't seem to sleep right lately. I don't know why, maybe because school and practices started and my body doesn't know how to adjust yet. I actually fell asleep after practice at around 2am, but woke up at 4:15am. I checked my e-mail and got even more woken up by an e-mail my professor sent about immunizations records I needed by tomorrow for clinicals, or else I get an F for the day...way to tell me last minute. So I searched all throughtout my drawers and folders for this one piece of paper that I didn't even find. So it looks like I'll need a trip to the hospital later to get a shot.

But anyways, during downtime at practice today I got to talk about what I wanted to do with my life with some people. It was weird how excited I got because at last I know what I want to do. I explained to a few people that after I get my Bachelor's in Nursing, I want to specialize in Emergency care and work in the ER or Pediatrics and work with kids. I don't mind working with adults either, so Med-Surg floor wouldn't be the worst place. I'm pretty excited. I was in Barnes and Noble earlier this morning, too, and saw books about pediatric care and emergency care and couldn't wait until I get to know what's in them. After working as an RN for a year or two or three, depending on whatever situation I am in, I would want to either (a) get a Master's or Doctorate in Nursing and become a Nurse Practicioner specializing in Pediatrics or family medicine, (b) become a traveling nurse and do just that, travel, and (c) [which is kind of weird] go back to school and get a degree in Marine Biology.
Marine biology was something I wanted to do before but just never had the courage, I guess, to do it. I love aquariums and wouldn't mind at all if I worked in one. I love everything about marine biology, except for deep water. I'm actually terrified of the deep sea. If I ever get stranded in the ocean at night with nothing, I would kill myself. I can't stand the thought of just floating in the ocean at night, or daytime, whatever, and not knowing what's around you. Other than that, I really want to be a marine biologist, training dolphins, knowing about life under water, etc. Is that weird? I'm not sure, haha.
When or if I accomplished all those goals, I would also like to become a teacher. Maybe teach nursing students or whoever I will be able to.
It may be a lot to do and may also be a rough challenge, but I believe I'm up for it. It will definately be worth it =].