Things to do Before I Die.

I'm making this my lifetime goal:



To do that all over the world would be one of the best parts of my life. I love it. I think it's one of those things that you can't help but feel good about. It makes me want to live =] Let's do this!

Yes, Keith posted this on his blog and yes, it was because we were talking about Shawn's video. haha. Good night. I need to study >_<

GoldinUniverse.com

Hah, check it out.

Name: Rob
Date: 4/29/2009
Colorgenics Number: 12043675


You are the sort of person that needs a peaceful environment. You seek release from stress and freedom from conflicts and disagreements, of which you seem to have had more than your fair share. But you are taking pains to control the situation by proceeding cautiously and you are right in doing so as you are a very sensitive person.
All of your dreams and hopes have not materialised and consequently you are unsure of which way to go. This uncertainty has led to considerable stress but you have sufficient 'strength of mind' to overcome this state of affairs although it will take some time.
You are confined and trapped in a distressing or uncomfortable situation and seeking some way out. Whatever you seem to do to resolve the problem hasn't worked out. Fortunately you are able to gain some aspect of relief from someone close to you.
You are an emotional, sincere and impressionable individual experiencing frustration and unnecessary stress. You are carried away by other people's enthusiasm and looking for that idealised relationship, be it in a business or personal situation, which you are able to share with a mutual depth of understanding. You have lowered your defences in the past and you have been hurt, so you are now extremely wary of being exploited. You are still ready to trust people on the condition that they are prepared to offer you proof of their sincerity.
You are inclined to be too trusting and you feel that you need to be on your guard against the possibility that your endeavours and actions may be misunderstood. Too often you have been taken advantage of and you have been mentally abused. Now you are seeking a relationship which can provide peace of mind, where you can be yourself and not have the need to put on a false front.

My Workshop Videos

Not bad for figuring it out the night and morning of. haha.

Me and Neil


Boys:


Girls:



Check check check it...

Plus points for Japan.

Random find of the night:



Japan ftw.

Holllerrrr =]

...make me believe you.

Fusion Hip Hop Dance Competition

1st: Choreo Cookies

2nd: CADC

3rd: Common Ground. =]

I'm so proud of and amazed by these people right here:

I love you guys!

Still can't explain how good it felt hearing the team's name being
announced during the awards presentation. =D

Les Miserables

"I dreamed a dream in time gone by
When hope was high,
And life worth living
I dreamed that love would never die
I dreamed that God would be forgiving.

Then I was young and unafraid
When dreams were made and used,
And wasted
There was no ransom to be paid
No song unsung,
No wine untasted.

But the tigers come at night
With their voices soft as thunder
As they tear your hopes apart
As they turn your dreams to shame.

And still I dream she'll come to me
And we will live our lives together
But there are dreams that cannot be
And there are storms
We cannot weather...

I had a dream my life would be
So different from this hell I'm living
So different now from what it seems
Now life has killed
The dream I dreamed."

Rule #2: No emo. haha

Story of my life..

haha jk, not really. lol

...btw, class got cancelled so my prof. is lecturing through a virtual chatroom? Weird. I feel like I'm in the future. I don't think I like it.

I want one..

By the way,
I want one of these in my future house. haha.
Aquarium of the Pacific is amazing.
Next: More aquariums all over the country. =]

Procrastinating

You know when you can't remember something so small that it just bothers you for the longest time? Well, for some reason I thought about this video I saw years ago and couldn't put my finger on what it was called or how to search for it. But, I found it! haha. Enjoy.

...wtf?

Get me one. hahah. I'll stamp your forehead.

Sometimes...

"Sometimes we build up walls - not to keep people out, but to see who cares enough to knock them down."


I've been hearing advice like this over and over. Letting your guard down and letting people in is a very tough task to do. I think it's a pretty legitimate fear. I don't like being so close to people because of the fear of getting knocked down. I have a lot of things to work on myself, but I choose to deal with it on my own. It may or may not be a good thing, but that's just how I've been doing it. I also understand that with this behavior I occassionally push people away to prevent them from getting too close. I make excuses or occupy myself to prevent me from letting anyone in and convince myself that it's ok and just let the person go. Don't get me wrong, I'm very close to alot of my friends, even closer than I have been to any of my friends in the past. It's just that there's still a part of me that knows something's probably gonna go wrong or eventually they'll leave, but I understand people come and go, but the ones who stay are the ones who deserve to. I don't know what I'm talking about anymore, it's 4 in the morning and I have clinical in a couple hours. Maybe I just need to stop making excuses and just let it go, we'll see. I don't know if I'll ever let anyone knock my 'wall' down, maybe one day, but for now, you can just climb over it.

Sorry for the rambling, I needed to occupy my time because my sleep pattern doesn't work with my school schedule.

Easy to lose, a lot harder to gain.

trust 
/trʌst/ Show Spelled Pronunciation [truhst] ,
–noun
1.
reliance on the integrity, strength, ability, surety, etc., of a person or thing; confidence.
2.
confident expectation of something; hope.
3.
a person on whom or thing on which one relies: God is my trust.
4.
the obligation or responsibility imposed on a person in whom confidence or authority is placed: a position of trust.
5.
something committed or entrusted to one's care for use or safekeeping, as an office, duty, or the like; responsibility; charge.



Through my experiences, trust is one of the hardest for me to give out. I can still stay I don't completely trust anyone, but maybe 1 or 2 of my friends. No one knows my whole story and I don't think I'll let anyone close enough to know. Call me paranoid, but that's just how I've been. Everything has proven me right and no one or nothing has stayed long enough to prove me wrong. Like it, hate it, that's just the way I am.

Striving.

"After a while you learn a subtle difference between holding a hand and changing a soul;
And you learn that love doesn’t mean leaning and company doesn’t mean security;
And you begin to learn that kisses aren’t contracts and presents aren’t promises;
And you begin to accept your defeats with your head up and your eyes open with the grace of an adult, not the grief of a child;
And you learn to build your roads on today because tomorrow’s ground is too uncertain for plans.
After a while you learn that even sunshine burns if you get too much;
So plant your own garden and decorate your soul, instead of waiting for someone to bring you flowers;
And learn that you really can endure, That you really are strong, and you really do have worth!"
-Anonymous.

Keep your head up kids. Give me a smile =]